Resolving myself

In my last post I had written:
... remind 'real-world-me' of its inconsistencies with the 'inner-me'
Reading the post over again I was posed with the questions
What is the inner-me and what is the real-world-me? (The Question)
I really don't have a right answer! At best I can attempt to hypothesize on it.

Whatever I am, whether it is the real-world-me or inner-me, both are products of my environment and my upbringing; so this differentiation of real-world-me and inner-me are artificial. The nearest I can come to differentiating between the 2 is in terms of the core principles that one believes in. I believe that everyone has a set of principles (core-principles) by which one is tries to live; the inner-me wants to live by those principles, whereas the real-world-me compromises when it becomes inevitable in the real world. Whenever, there is a deviation from the said principles, the inner-me suffers an agony untold, whereas the real-world-me cooks up all possible justifications for the deviations.

Some points to keep in mind:
Core values can be different for different people
Core values by themselves cannot be termed as 'right' or 'wrong', because right and wrong are individual perceptions. But core values of a person would be considered by that person as 'right".
There is nothing absolute about core values either - they are again the result of the environment.

So it's all in one's mind. :-) -A Revelation?

About this blog

I welcome comments - be it buse (?) or abuse. But I usually do not respond to comments - nothing personal; if at all I need to respond, it might come out as a separate post. Meanwhile thanks to all the folk who took time to read and found it worthwhile to respond.

From the comments received so far it seems that this URL was earlier used by some other blogger. It was not my intention to usurp the URL - the URL was available and I took it. This brings me to the choice of the url - 'the-visitor' is my conscience or sub-conscious that visits the 'real-world-me' now and then to remind 'real-world-me' of its inconsistencies with the 'inner-me' and tries to even out the inconsistencies to make life more livable for 'real-world-me'.

Taking liberties

Never take liberties with anybody - particularly virtual acquaintances.
I dont seem to have learnt this lesson at all.
Why do I have to feel hurt by the words of an unknown person?
But I deserved it, I did provoke him.
So what's the hassle?
Nothing, it still takes a couple of minutes for the adrenaline to subside and for me to regain my composure.
Now I'm fine. :)

A Revelation on Guilt

I was born guilty - and I am not referring to the original sin.
I was guilty of not doing my duties.
I was guilty of not living upto expectations.
I was feeling unhappy because of my guilt.

Was there anything that I could be happy about?
I like talking to people (would someone call it gossip?)
I like to share thoughts with others and rejoice when I find people who share my thoughts.
There are so many other things that I enjoyed doing.
But all the same, I felt guilty about doing things that I enjoyed,
- because I was not expected to do it.
I was not doing what I was expected to do.

Did God have a purpose for me in this world?
Probably, yes.
Is it to make other people 'Happy' by talking to them?
Again, maybe yes..
Can I honestly say that I am doing that?
Certainly yes.
If I live up to God's expectation, need I feel guilty?
Definitely NO!

Shedding my guilt made me free!
I shall NOT feel Guilty.