On procrastination

Even the most disorganized person would agree that there is a lot of merit in organizing oneself. I am myself a very unorganized person (Hey! what is the difference between unorganized and disorganized?) and have felt that I could be more productive (efficient, if not productive) if I were more organized. While this was just a feeling I really did not have any articulated proof, which of course set me thinking.

Does planning / being organized help one to be more efficient?
If it does, how?
Why am I not more organized?

Intuitively it is obvious that planning would help one to be more efficient, so rather than waste my effort in conducting an experiment to prove it, I took that as the basic premise. Now the second question - how does planning help?

Of course, we have enough real life examples to substantiate this; lets take a simple case:

If I want to write a letter, if the postcard/envelope/stationary were readily available at a specific place then the task of writing a letter becomes that much easier than having to get together all the required stuff before actually starting the task. So an unorganized person has the additional preparatory task of getting the environment right before even commencing the work!
Now comes the actual task of writing - one needs to have the contents of the letter well organized in one's mind before being able to put it down on paper, which means that there would be atleast a couple of rough drafts before we get to express ourselves correctly. One can also settle for an overly over-written letter with scratches and scrawls. Of course in today's world with the computer at hand this task has become much easier and hence we have more people corresponding through emails, blogs and a variety of other formats.

Just a simple task of writing a letter shows that being organized both physically and mentally is required to achieve the objective. Just imagine the perils to which a letter written by an unorganized person is subject to! It is more likely to die a premature death than reach the intended person. So the next time round when you run into the intended receiver, imagine having to sheepishly say, "Oh, I did so much want to write to you, but I couldn't find my pen". The point here is that being unorganized also leads to procrastination.

Now why would an intelligent person like I be unorganized? Why can't I be more organized? That is a good question.

I need to grow up

My behavior today morning was totally uncalled for. Shocking, I would call it. Juvenile behavior - no wonder SO observed that I am not man enough.

Strange - I am extremely tolerant in formal interactions, but become an intolerant demon with close people. Not a desirable trait at all. I wonder if everyone is like this.

VaethaaLam Murungaimarathil...

Today morning I once again had a wild fit of temper.

Is it only because of external stimuli? or is it because of internal hormonal changes, and external stimuli are just convenient pegs on which to hang the blame?

The stimulus was innocent enough and did not warrant a full blown temper tantrum like the one I threw. So it could be a changed internal state.

Is true empathy possible?

I've seen people behave 'oddly', at least from my perspective. Try as much as I could, to put myself in their place, I still couldn't fathom why they behaved in the way they did.

Of late, in several situations, I'm behaving 'oddly' by my own standards; I have no control over it and feel pretty bad about it. Shows that one can never judge another.

Online relationships

I find online relationships comfortable. Why? I have the benefits of the relationship, without having to commit to the relationship. Break-ups are easy.

Edited on Feb 12, 2013 to add: JB's post, A case for superficial friendships seems appropriate in this context.

Approval

I always seek approval and validation for all my actions. Can't I act of my own accord and yet be happy? I shall strive for that.

Me and I

Who am I?
A question that most (confused) people would have asked themselves sometime or the other. There are perhaps some people who are not troubled by such inane questions. I belong to the former category. I have asked myself this question several times and have come up with different answers at different times.

Recently I came up with an answer with a different perspective.

I am I, but I am not Me
I am active, not passive like Me
I do all the work, but everyone credits Me for it.
Who am I?

I am not Me nor Me I
I am I and Me is Me
I am active, making ME passive
If I resolve this conflict,
It will make Me happy.

Purpose of living

I just can't figure it out. I don't see any purpose in continuing, and I see no purpose in ending it too. Does everything need a purpose?

Achievement

I am a fairly intelligent being - I ought to have achieved more in life. But I haven't, by my own standards, also by the standards of those around me. What is it that I lack?

Resolving myself

In my last post I had written:
... remind 'real-world-me' of its inconsistencies with the 'inner-me'
Reading the post over again I was posed with the questions
What is the inner-me and what is the real-world-me? (The Question)
I really don't have a right answer! At best I can attempt to hypothesize on it.

Whatever I am, whether it is the real-world-me or inner-me, both are products of my environment and my upbringing; so this differentiation of real-world-me and inner-me are artificial. The nearest I can come to differentiating between the 2 is in terms of the core principles that one believes in. I believe that everyone has a set of principles (core-principles) by which one is tries to live; the inner-me wants to live by those principles, whereas the real-world-me compromises when it becomes inevitable in the real world. Whenever, there is a deviation from the said principles, the inner-me suffers an agony untold, whereas the real-world-me cooks up all possible justifications for the deviations.

Some points to keep in mind:
Core values can be different for different people
Core values by themselves cannot be termed as 'right' or 'wrong', because right and wrong are individual perceptions. But core values of a person would be considered by that person as 'right".
There is nothing absolute about core values either - they are again the result of the environment.

So it's all in one's mind. :-) -A Revelation?