Co dependent?

Been wanting to talk to SO, but am refraining from calling her, as I'd said I would, until she's clear about what she feels about our relationship. Feeling exasperated that she isn't calling - am I dependent (on her)? I'd wanted to discuss about G's altercation with a local dada - just exchange small talk...

JB had said something about co-dependency relationship. Am I in a co-dependency relationship? Confused.

Just checked out again what codependency means - one of the persons in the codependency relationship is necessarily someone who has excessive needs, neither SO nor I qualify for that.

Melancholic - not depressed.

Received a call from SO today. She inquired about Klinjo - it was a happy mood. I then told her about her trading account and said she could withdraw the money, if she desired. I actually expected her to ask me continue operating the account, but she said that she'll withdraw the money and prefer to close the account - I was disappointed.

Breakthrough

SO called! after 11 + days and I was TRULY elated. We had a meaningful interchange; no accusations, no emotions running high. SO decided to introspect and get back...
Keeping fingers crossed.
PS: Praying to Anjaneya seems to help.

It's over.

Last night I vented my feelings about our relationship to SO. She said that she did not like living with me. When I asked about the reason she said that she'd tell me (in a few days), but not over the phone.

Visit to Psychologist

Today I had my second appointment with my counselor. It was impromptu fixed. Mainly spoke about my relationship issues. It was good. Came out feeling better.

PS: After my first appointment with her I felt her to be a mumbo-jumbo person. First impressions can be wrong.

Hold my hands

Lend me a shoulder,
Hold my hands and
Lead me to clarity comfort(?).

That's all I ask,
But there's no one,
Not the person I wanted.

Am I right to expect?
or should I pick myself up
and trudge along?

Because trudge along is
what I am capable of.
Lacking energy, lacking passion
broken in spirit.

Clingy

I am both, jealous and clingy, which I presume are symptoms of being rejected.

Edited to add: I got another answer - that they are symptomatic of insecurity, I agree.

Online relationships

I find online relationships comfortable. Why? I have the benefits of the relationship, without having to commit to the relationship. Break-ups are easy.

Edited on Feb 12, 2013 to add: JB's post, A case for superficial friendships seems appropriate in this context.