Co dependent?

Been wanting to talk to SO, but am refraining from calling her, as I'd said I would, until she's clear about what she feels about our relationship. Feeling exasperated that she isn't calling - am I dependent (on her)? I'd wanted to discuss about G's altercation with a local dada - just exchange small talk...

JB had said something about co-dependency relationship. Am I in a co-dependency relationship? Confused.

Just checked out again what codependency means - one of the persons in the codependency relationship is necessarily someone who has excessive needs, neither SO nor I qualify for that.

SO called in the morning to inquire about my cold - she IS trying.

Melancholic - not depressed.

Received a call from SO today. She inquired about Klinjo - it was a happy mood. I then told her about her trading account and said she could withdraw the money, if she desired. I actually expected her to ask me continue operating the account, but she said that she'll withdraw the money and prefer to close the account - I was disappointed.

Status update

The last few days since the last post have been uneventful wrt to mood. Today evening (6.20) I sent SO an sms asking her to call when free, but till now there has been no call. :( Feeling let down.

Breakthrough

SO called! after 11 + days and I was TRULY elated. We had a meaningful interchange; no accusations, no emotions running high. SO decided to introspect and get back...
Keeping fingers crossed.
PS: Praying to Anjaneya seems to help.

It's over.

Last night I vented my feelings about our relationship to SO. She said that she did not like living with me. When I asked about the reason she said that she'd tell me (in a few days), but not over the phone.

Pleasantly surprised!

Today morning I received a message from SO, asking me to call when free. I called and was pleasantly surprised to be wished "Happy Anniversary".

Incident

I was interacting with SO by phone; during the exchange something happened and I lost my temper and shouted at her. Now I've lost the equanimity that I was maintaining. It had kind of triggered my depression again.

I seem unable to recall what it feels like to be happy. I seem to have lost that ability totally.

Silly thing I did

Last Saturday I did a very silly thing. I was walking down a hill path which had rock faces covered with dried moss. I scribed SO's and my name on such rocks all along the way - as though that is going to save the relationship. :|

Man enough

Did I tell you this? SO told me this, "You are not man enough."

Significant interactions

Some of my recent significant interactions with my 'significant other':

May 1, 2011 - Book ticket to XXXX
May 5, 2011 - Book ticket from XXXX
May 31, 2011 - Mobile recharge
Jun 26, 2011 - Mobile recharge
Jul 02, 2011 - Visited SO
Jul 10, 2011 - Recd. calls reg. activity of Off1
Jul 10, 2011 - Broadband bill pay.