Pleasantly surprised!

Today morning I received a message from SO, asking me to call when free. I called and was pleasantly surprised to be wished "Happy Anniversary".

My favorite blogger

I can spend countless hours reading her posts and sobbing over them. I don't know why (I cry). Her posts have that effect on me. I haven't even met her. Perhaps I don't want need to even meet her.

Visit to Psychologist

Today I had my second appointment with my counselor. It was impromptu fixed. Mainly spoke about my relationship issues. It was good. Came out feeling better.

PS: After my first appointment with her I felt her to be a mumbo-jumbo person. First impressions can be wrong.

I need to grow up

My behavior today morning was totally uncalled for. Shocking, I would call it. Juvenile behavior - no wonder SO observed that I am not man enough.

Strange - I am extremely tolerant in formal interactions, but become an intolerant demon with close people. Not a desirable trait at all. I wonder if everyone is like this.

VaethaaLam Murungaimarathil...

Today morning I once again had a wild fit of temper.

Is it only because of external stimuli? or is it because of internal hormonal changes, and external stimuli are just convenient pegs on which to hang the blame?

The stimulus was innocent enough and did not warrant a full blown temper tantrum like the one I threw. So it could be a changed internal state.

Hold my hands

Lend me a shoulder,
Hold my hands and
Lead me to clarity comfort(?).

That's all I ask,
But there's no one,
Not the person I wanted.

Am I right to expect?
or should I pick myself up
and trudge along?

Because trudge along is
what I am capable of.
Lacking energy, lacking passion
broken in spirit.

Clingy

I am both, jealous and clingy, which I presume are symptoms of being rejected.

Edited to add: I got another answer - that they are symptomatic of insecurity, I agree.