Day 10

No significant change...

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Feeling clingy, needy, inadequate, weepy. It seems that I've been like this forever. Will I ever be able to come out of this state? Will it end?

Surprisingly, I'd once thought I would never feel these emotions.

Nearly 48 hrs

It's been nearly 48 hrs since the cut-off. I shall not yield.

Head bath

I had a head bath today with near freezing cold water.

It's over.

Last night I vented my feelings about our relationship to SO. She said that she did not like living with me. When I asked about the reason she said that she'd tell me (in a few days), but not over the phone.

Pleasantly surprised!

Today morning I received a message from SO, asking me to call when free. I called and was pleasantly surprised to be wished "Happy Anniversary".

My favorite blogger

I can spend countless hours reading her posts and sobbing over them. I don't know why (I cry). Her posts have that effect on me. I haven't even met her. Perhaps I don't want need to even meet her.