I suffer from Fast finger - a condition characterized by the frequent F5ing of a blog page, soon after posting a comment or posting a mail, in the expectation of a reply. Side effects - this condition has also feeds the egos of bloggers whose pages keep getting refreshed and indirectly increasing the page hits.
Melancholy has a way of becoming pervasive, when happy moments seem like wisps of smoke dissolving into thin air.
Some of my recent significant interactions with my 'significant other':
May 1, 2011 - Book ticket to XXXX
May 5, 2011 - Book ticket from XXXX
May 31, 2011 - Mobile recharge
Jun 26, 2011 - Mobile recharge
Jul 02, 2011 - Visited SO
Jul 10, 2011 - Recd. calls reg. activity of Off1
Jul 10, 2011 - Broadband bill pay.
I am unbelievably happy, when I realized today that I still have the capacity to feel unbounded love. All thanks to interaction with one chit of a girl.
I still have to wait for a day to confirm that this isn't the manic phase of BPD.
PS: It is confirmed that the earlier observation was made in a state of euphoria (up-phase of BPD). :|
For the first time in my life, I've felt really rejected. How does one cope when the only person you can go to is the person to reject you?
Needs further clarity... before posting...
I thought that I was I
and was cribbing about ME.
Now I know that I am I
and that I am also ME.
As I know this now,
the truth sets ME free.
Everything does need a purpose. There can be a purpose for living, without that purpose having to have any higher value or meaning. Just being needed (by someone) is purpose enough for living. :)
